Today, thankful for finally mastering (kinda) APA
and for my dear friend, Krystal ❤
and, of course, great films from the 80s and before. lol I was watching Pretty in Pink and really liked the prom scene. They are dancing NORMAL. not like the morons today who freak. wtf? Save that for the bedroom, kids.
I have come to a conclusion that I am scared… therefore the fear makes me depressed…
but I am thankful for my family and my nephews… ❤
This is really hard. this is realllllly hard. I’m balling, my eyes are bursting with red and tears. I don’t understand why I cannot just be happy why this so difficult for me. why can’t I be in a place I want to be???? My mind is just moving around with suicidal thoughts and happy ones. It is a constant battle I am having with myself. I really hate these episodes I continue having. I just want help I am sooo trapped. Why cant I get some reassurance and guidance? I feel like I am drowning in my own depressive thoughts. No one really seems to help everyone just says be thankful and be happy- how???????
Okay one thing I am thankful for today- having my family. and place to sleep at night. and a job. I feel like some invisible person keeps stabbing my chest and heart. Help me please.
You know it is really difficult to see my friends with their significant others on fb and ig… I really want to be with him everyday and get anxious immediately. I dont understand why I was put in a depressing position to just go days and wonder when will we hang out together next? Plus I want more things… they say that when you really want something deep down youll get it… sighh…
Happy birthday to Nicole! Happy to still have her in my life 🙂
I guess I am thankful to have my mama because at Nicole’s birthday, almost every single girl was dressed super casual… I looked damn good and appropriate in my cute skirt and top 🙂 Glad mama gave me good fashion sense
Thankful for getting sales on Etsy!!!
I’m getting there!
Finally home from ER…
Thankful for my family for caring and believing me and of course to God that I am okay… going through the tests and scans… scary! Just glad that so far nothing serious. But I have to eat better no more sweeets! They were surprised how someone so petite and skinny could have such have levels of glucose 😦 blame the sweeeet toooooth!